As of this week, we are through with a third of the deployment! Having Addie to keep me busy has certainly made this deployment go by quicker. And being more deeply rooted in my faith since the last go around has helped me to be less anxious and more accepting of where God has placed us at this point in our lives--even though it's almost 8,000 miles away from one another. Although it may seem to be going by more speedily and I'm more trusting in God as Tim's protector, the missing him part appears more intense this time.
I miss my husband when I wake up to Addie's sweet, sweet smiles, wishing his face could be the one she beams at; I miss him every time I see a couple holding hands; I miss his arm wrapped around my waist while we sing at church; I miss him being able to make Addie giggle; I miss his excitement coming through the door to see all his girls (dogs included), I miss watching him love on our daughter; I miss listening to his prayers before dinner; I miss knowing he's safely in bed with me; I miss him chasing me around the house (he says he's done this ever since high school :); I miss our discussions after a Sunday sermon, I miss our Friday night dates, I miss his OVER-THE-TOP celebrating when one of his teams makes a big play or wins; I miss his dancing in the aisle of a store (almost every time we go out); I miss his compliments; I miss his undying support; I miss his back rubs; I miss his singing (if he's reading this, there is a shocked expression on his face because he makes some sound or another allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll the time, and sometimes I ask for five minutes of silence, ha); I miss jumping into his arms; I miss...everything about him.
Despite all the missing, there is also gratefulness. I'm grateful that there are men and women like my husband who are willing to sacrifice their lives for our freedom; I'm grateful that Tim has a warm bed to retire in at night; I'm grateful that Tim's soldiers respect his leadership; I'm grateful that my spouse trusts in the Lord, I'm grateful that he makes time to speak to us as often as he can; I'm grateful that I get to see him LIGHT UP when he sees Adeline on Skype; I'm grateful for my phone that enables me to email him several pictures and videos of Addie each day; I'm grateful for our nation's support of its troops; I'm grateful for my new church home; I'm grateful for this rare time with our family and friends; I'm grateful for my daughter who makes my heart swell with joy; I'm grateful for every single prayer said for Tim!
I love you, Hubby!
Less than six months to go!