I couldn't imagine there was ANYTHING that would ever cause me to desperately try and find ways to stay in El Paso. But last night my mind was legitimately swirling with possibilities that could keep us in the barren, dusty, unforsaken town. Maybe Tim could even turn down his acceptance to U of A for graduate school and apply to UTEP! Now, I know that's NOT going to happen and we will leave this city soon, but I wish I would have discovered my new passion for El Paso when we arrived two years ago.
Last night I attended my first training session to be a counselor at Pregnancy Help Center, a Christian based, life-affirming organization in El Paso. My heart was ON FIRE for God for two hours, feeling like I'd truly found my calling to serve Christ. I've volunteered in other areas of the church before, but never felt wholly convicted. But last night was COMPLETELY different. I was totally plugged in to every word, pulse racing at the opportunity to counsel abortion-minded women and share the Gospel, in hopes that they'll choose life for their child and Christ for themselves! I know I said I wish I'd found this place sooner, but I trust that God placed me here at the perfect time. For me, I feel like I needed to have Adeline in my life to understand the weight of this ministry. When God gave me Adeline, I began to imagine every child (including those in the womb) as my little girl. When I hear about a child being abused, I think about Adeline enduring that neglect. If I learn about an abortion, I think about losing Adeline. If I hear about a child starving, I imagine Adeline's cries of hunger. She is every child. And if I can save even one Adeline....
The director showed us a couple music videos at the end of our training, explaining that these stories have saved many babies at the center. Of course, tears were flowing as I pictured my little girl in each one.
40 Day Challenge--Day 14:
Find your calling! God has designed each one of us for a unique purpose; my heart probably breaks for something different than yours. Start your search to serve His Kingdom and if you find it, get going! I understand that there is a season for everything and it may not yet be the right time for your heart to be on fire for the ministry God has called you to serve. I didn't have the passion I currently exude for counseling abortion-determined women until I had my Adeline. But, start asking God for His guidance. Where does He want to use you? If He answers you, pray for the opportunity to present itself and the courage to start volunteering NOW!
P.S. For women who have experienced an abortion, my heart is with you. I understand that you deal with unimaginable pain and guilt over losing your child. However, there is good news! If you accept Christ as your savior, you WILL be reunited with your child one day in Heaven, and the Lord will wash you clean with His mercy, grace, and forgiveness. Please contact me or send me a prayer request if you would like help or prayer in healing from an abortion.